Thursday, August 13, 2009

Considering-Verse III

Considering seems to be this on-going song. At least that 's the way it's seemed since 2005 when God gave first put the words in my heart. What I think to be the final verse came to me as I was preparing a talk for the ladies retreat at my church. The topic I was to speak on was experiencing God's love through pain. Well, in order to go there, I had to go back in time and think on how I'd actually experienced God's love through pain. This was a somewhat painful task even though I could clearly see God's hand in the circumstances of my life. I could see God's faithfulness through some difficult things but I found myself wondering about the tomorrows of my life. My "worry flesh" began to kick in and familiar words that used to paralize me began running through my head. That's when I needed to replace lies with truth. At that moment, God didn't give me a scripture but another verse to Considering. He's funny like that. He speaks to me in a way that He knows I can receive His truth in a given moment. I know sometimes I'm to busy trying to figure things out on my own but in those moments when I'm quiet before Him, He is faithful to show me His truth.

Considering-Verse III-Written in April 2009

Oh, Lord you have been faithful
As I’ve traveled down this road.
As I look toward tomorrow,
I sometimes wonder what it holds.
Then I hear you gently whisper
I am with you in the now
And whatever comes tomorrow
You will see my grace poured out.

Chorus: amended in April 2009
Considering all you’ve done for me,
Considering all I know of you,
Lord, I want to let you love me
Even though I can’t see you.
Lord, I choose to let you love me
Even when I can’t see you.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

None But Jesus

This is a song that God has been using to speak to me lately. It keeps bringing me back to the center. This is my life. I can't wait to start living until this or that happens. This is my everyday,ordinary, God-appointed life. My focus needs to be Him and not my to do list (although I do like my list :) )! I want to make the most of everyday that I have and enjoy each moment whether it's walking the dog or sleeping in or hugging my boy or my man or....... You get the point. "All my delight is in you Lord. All of my hope. All of my strength."

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

If God Needs Anything From Me, Is it My Weakness?

Today someone shared that they had been reading in 2 Corinthians 12 during their devotional time together as a family. I’m sure you’re familiar with the verses even if you don’t know the reference. It’s the part where Paul is talking about not boasting in anything except his weaknesses. Then she made this statement: “I think this is saying that if God were to ever need anything from us He would want our weakness.” Well, I immediately wrote that down and knew I was going to have to think about that and do a little digging. She didn’t say that God needs something from us but if He did it would probably be our weakness.
Well, I don’t know about you but I don’t like having weaknesses. I don’t want to sit around talking about them over coffee with friends. They are what get in the way of me living a victorious, abundant, life to the full kind of day. I can spend so much time focusing on not walking in fear, for example, that I forget to access the power Christ in me when fear crops up!
Paul, on the other hand, says this: In 2 Cor. 11:30b “If I have to boast, I will boast of what pertains to my weakness.” In 2Cr 12:5- he says “but on my own behalf I will not boast, except in regard to {my} weaknesses.” After asking God several times to remove his “thorn in the flesh” God said no. and this is what else He said: "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness." (2 Cor. 12:9)
Paul goes on to say: “Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore, I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.” (2:Cor.12:9b-10)
The list of things that Paul is well content with is what I usually want to avoid or pray for God to get me out of. Finally, when I realize that I have to go through “it” (and Him being with me, of course), I say: "Can we please hurry up so I can get on with experiencing the abundant life that you died to give me?!!!!!!"
I wonder what would happen if stopped despising my weaknesses but looked at them as an opportunity for God’s power to show up strong in me. I do have a choice right? About how I choose to look at things? Maybe my weaknesses aren’t keeping me from experiencing HIS life in me but an even greater opportunity for Him to express HIS life through me? I think ya, maybe. I’m going to think some more while I exercise. Before I know it, my boy will be home from school. Maybe we can share a little grace, a little truth and some LIFE together!!!!